This is hard for me to admit to myself, let alone publically. However, I feel as though I need to verbalize where I am at so that you may hold me accountable and pray for change. For quite some time now I have been living in complacency, mediocrity. I have become comfortable in my daily routine- a routine which I happen to really like. This morning I was enjoying the sun and spending some time in the Word outdoors. And there it was in James.
“From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so. Does a spring pour forth from the same opening both fresh and salt water? Can a fig tree, my brothers, bear olives, or a grapevine produce figs? Neither can a salt pond yield fresh water.” James 3:10-12
Guilty. I’m trying to live comfortably in this world and walk with Him at the same time. Later, I was reading some of the highlights from the book “Kisses from Katie.” It was then that I completely broke down. God humbled me. The Lord does not call us as Christians to be lukewarm or to blend in.
I am not sure how or where it is that the Lord wants to use me. But I know that I want to be ready and willing. I know that I do not have to feel ‘able’ or ‘qualified’ when the time does come. I want to need Him. This scares me because I am uncertain of how He may choose to use me.
I pray that the Lord will help me choose Him every moment of every day- that I will be fully committed to Him. I want to shine so brightly for Him that others can’t help but see and feel His love. I pray that I look at every encounter as an opportunity to show His love. I don’t want to be lukewarm, mediocre or normal any longer. Lord, reveal to me how it is that you want to use me. I need to find a way to get out of this rut and be on fire.
Anyone have any suggestions on what makes you zealous for the Lord?